Yesterday was a good day… In fact, it was an amazing day!
It marked a major turning point for me. I gave myself permission to be horny, dirty, flirty and I started to become the person I have always wanted to be. It is amazing how such small steps – starting a blog, setting up my twitter account – can have such a profound and liberating effect. I feel like a different person, when in fact what has actually happened is that I am starting to feel like me, the real me…. For the first time in a very long time.
So now I am up and at my keyboard at a ridiculously early time on a Sunday morning and I am full of energy, desire, ideas and passion. I really do need to get the myriad of thoughts in my head organised and in some form of structure. The first thing I need to do is to work out what and how I am going to write… It is all well and good diving into Twitter and having a blast with the amazing, sexy, inspiring people I have found, but that will not fulfil my desire to write and be read and be published. That has to come from my wild imagination combined with some good old fashioned structure, planning and dedication. For me, I can already see that the act of writing a blog, that is intended for other people to read, is a great way of exploring how I feel, what I am thinking and making some sense of it all. Whether any of you guys reading this think the same thing is a whole different story, so please let me know either way.
So enough rambling and random musing – down to business…
It seems to me that in order to get some short term focus, the first thing I need to do is work out what type of stories I am going to write. When you haven’t written anything before it is overwhelming and (if I’m honest) a bit intimidating to know where to start. A few minutes looking at my Twitter feed showed just how broad the erotic writing genre is, and the quality of the stories is mind blowing. Can I really write good stories, can I get anywhere near the level of the talented people out there? I am not sure that I can, but I am so fired up and positive that I am going to give it a damn good try! That feeling alone inspires me, as I would never have had the confidence to even think about beginning, and here I am telling the World I am going to do it….
Deep down, I have always wanted to write a full length erotic novel. A story of awakening, of deep desires and dirty fantasies. A story where I explore the process of giving permission to your inner deep sexual needs and enjoying the consequences in ever more bold and passionate ways… I want to draw on my own experience of this and write something with depth to it, alongside a whole series of mind blowing, dirty, sexual encounters (of course!).
However, being slightly practical for a second, writing a full novel with all the complexity and effort required, is clearly not the place to start!
So today’s challenge is to figure out what my first story will be, and how to make a start. Will it be from one of the websites out there calling for a story on a particular theme, should it be from my wild imagination and one of the many hot and dirty scenarios I have in my head? Should it be from personal experience (with some embellishments of course!)… Should it be a romantic, gentle encounter, or an explicit, dirty, piece to get the juices really flowing…. So many decisions, and I am so turned on by the prospect of making them and starting to write…
Today is going to be another great day!